Wilderness Prayer

Oh Jesus, my Jesus,
True Friend of my heart, true Lover of my soul,
My heart is hurting, my soul is aching.
All that I have ever been,
All of my "beauties" falling, falling to the ground.
The goodnesses, the righteousness,
The good intentions and "right" motives,
Dropping layer by layer...
Leaving behind one that I do not even know or recognize...
The Lover of my love strips me
And as the hidden things are uncovered
And the exterior beauties taken,
I am not what I thought I was.
I know it is by Your hand that I am stripped.
Though it hurts immensely,
I recognize it as a Love deeper than my heart has ever known
Taking away that will not stand
That He might crown me with His true beauty
And clothe me in His robes.
Truly, I am not the one that I thought myself to be.
They ask me "then who is the one who comes?"
I look only to Your eyes and say,
"She is nothing but what He alone speaks her into being.
His words alone hold in the essence of who she is. She is His.
Do not look upon me, for I am dark.
Please see only Him, He is beautiful. He is the pure."

-Dana Candler

Nabalus- city of the terrorist

"You have heard it said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy,' But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? If you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Therefore you are to be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect." Matthew 5:44-48

"Wow, That's Random!?"

I am random. I am an all over the place kind of thinker, talker, and doer. I have known this for a while, mostly because all my friends tell me the title quoted at the top of this blog. I just thought I would share some of my random thoughts for the day...
-why can't I think of any random thoughts while I am writing this?
-why do people settle for less than their best?
-why do kids say the darndest things?
-is it ok to smile at people? I mean most look at you weird. I like to make up things they are thinking.
-what the heck, why do nebraska driver (Yes ONLY NEBRASKA) speed up when you turn on your blinker?
-I want to go biking, no it will take to long. Ok I want to go rollarblade, no it will also take to long, how about run. no I'll just sleep.
-why do people give $5 tips when then next person wants their nickel back?
-Is it ever OK to say what you are REALLY thinking?
-I want to go to a different country, or state .... oh wait I'm in school now!
I mean these aren't' that random maybe, but just try having a conversation with me sometime, it's random. And by the way, do you ever wonder what it would be like to be a marine biologist? I used to want to be one, except now that I had my first biology class, I am thinking, that is a good thing I didn't decide that profession....

LoVeSiCk

"Arise my darling, my beautiful one, and come along-- Arise my darling, my beautiful one and come along."
any time the Lord has to repeat something, IT MUST BE IMPORTANT TO HIM! The God of the cosmos, who created you and me, He beckons us to come along with Him.

"For I am lovesick."
Whoa, what an amazing quote, to be sick with heart felt desire for someone. Have you ever been sick with love for someone, ever been sickened by strong emotion? Where you can't move because your body aches in needing that person; to be with, know better, or just to be in their presence. That is how Jesus feels about His bride. That is how we can feel about our Bridegroom Jesus.

"What kind of beloved is your Beloved? My Beloved is dazzling...outstanding among 10,000."
The world asks, "what kind of God allows...?" I answer, "my Beloved is dazzling, He burns with fire, a passionate blazing heart for our souls to know true intimacy. He is my Father who fulfills me and speaks kind words to me. He is dedicated to me, with His life. He knows everything about my heart, yet He is jealous for me to be completely His. He is pure, holy, compassionate, giving, intimate, tender...Outstanding among 10,000 other gods. He is the ONE I've waited for my whole life.

"And He is wholly desirable."

"I am my Beloveds and He is mine."

"Put me like a like a seal on your heart, like a seal on your arm. For love is as strong as death. "

"I AM MY BELOVEDS AND HIS DESIRE IS FOR ME!!!!"

Not a Writer

I am not a writer... Or so I always have thought. I pretty much just stumbled into having this thing because Stephanie won't let an anonymous person comment. I've always had a hard time writing. But maybe this will help, get the creative juices flowing!
I am starting school next week. Freshman at 23. It is no big deal to start late, I just think it is funny since all my friends are graduated or seniors. I am so excited because God has led me here. I completely thought I would never go to college, "God doesn't need a degree to use me!" Oh, the cynical anne used to think. But He is so faithful and has changed my heart to see that I want to learn, I want to be used to spread the love of Jesus to college students AND educate my brain. So anyway...School is exciting, and I am looking forward for God to do more than I can ever ask for or imagine!