How Could You?

Lately, everything is so overwhelming. It's overwhelming in a different way. The world is so bright, every sense is heightened. Every person special. Every breath fills up my chest, filling me until I explode. All the swirling, white clouds are moving and changing like my thoughts. I think about life; how can it be so good?
I've often thought of my life as lame. I expect too much I guess. I think about "Where much is given, much is required", and I in reality, I've got it all. But I want to give so much more. I want to live so much more. Can I live like my heart says? Can I be all the crazy things I want to be?
I've heard it said, you choose your life. Many times, as it seems, we can't... We feel stuck, trapped. But the reality is WE CAN CHOOSE. Whose to say we can't do everything we want? The good man, Jack, says that. Who says I can't go do crazy things like live in Sudan, and love war torn beautiful people, or who says I can't live in North Omaha and love hopeless, desperate people? So far, I am the one saying it, cause I am the only one not doing it.
Just when I am about to be utterly discouraged.... GRACE comes and whispers
"For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." "Those whom I love, I reprove and discipline; therefore be zealous and repent." Jesus loves me!!!
That day is coming... do you feel it? I do. Do you hear the groaning?

I'll leave you with my inspiration...

Upside Down ~ Jack Johnson
Who's to say what's impossible?
Well, they forgot this world keeps spinnin'
And with each new day, I can feel a change in everything.
And as the surface breaks, reflections fade,
but in some ways they remain the same.
And as my mind begins to spread its wings,
there's no stopping curiosity.
I want to turn the whole thing upside down.
I'll find the things they say just can't be found.
I'll share this love I find with everyone.
We'll sing and dance to mother nature's songs.
I don't want this feeling to go away.
Who's to say I can't do everything?
Well, I can try.
And as I roll along I begin to find
Things aren't always just what they seem
I want to turn the whole thing upside down.
I'll find the things they say just can't be found.
I'll share this love I find with everyone.
We'll sing and dance to mother nature's songs.
This world keeps spinnin' and there's no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinnin', spinnin', 'round and 'round and
Upside down, who's to say what's impossible and can't be found?
I don't want this feeling to go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Is this how it's supposed to be?
Is this how it's supposed to be?