Background Music

I was walking across the UNO campus today (for the third time mind you), and the sunset made the clouds look gorgeous, soft billowing pink and burning fiery orange. The scene was just behind the ol' clock tower, and the air was crisp and cool. It was the perfect first day of Fall. It was about the time not many are still on campus, so it was just me walking with the One whom my souls loves. Do you ever have a snap shot moment in your day? I haven't had many lately, running from here to there, but today I had it.

When those picture perfect moments arrive, I pick my background music. It's like the part in the movie where it's a close up of the actor thinking about something critical, like this is the turning point, and they play the song that goes so well with what the actor must be thinking.
My background music for this evening was "Breakdown" by good ol' Jack.

I hope this old train breaks down

Then I could take a walk around

See what there is to see, Time is just a melody

With all the people in the street walking as fast as their feet

Can take them, I just roll through town

Though my windows got a veiw, well the fame I'm looking through

Seems to have no concern for now

So for now, I I need this here old train to breakdown

Oh please just let me please just breakdown

Well this engine screams out loud, centipede going to crawl westbound

So I don’t even make a sound cause it’s going to sting me when I leave this town

And all the people in the street that I’ll never get to meet

If these tracks don’t bend somehow

And I got no time that I got to get to where I don’t need to be

So I I need this here old train to breakdown

Oh please just let me please just breakdown

I want to break on down But I can’t stop now

Let me break on down

But you can’t stop nothing if you got no control

Of the thoughts in your mind that you kept and you know

That you don’t know nothing but you don’t need to know

The wisdom’s in the trees not the glass windows

You can’t stop wishing if you don’t let go

Of the things that you find and you lose and you know

You keep on rolling, put the moment on hold

Because the frame’s too bright, so put the blinds down low

I need this here old train to breakdown

Oh please just let me please just breakdown

I got to break on down But I can't stop now

I definately relate to this song. I know it is what I need. I have so many things trapped inside me, I feel like I am pushing, stuffing, holding it all in. It might break, it might fall, but I don't know how to let it go. I don't want to be so concentrated on the facts or the essentials that I miss the full experience of this moment. I need to give it up, I need to process, not just acknowledge things. I don't even know how to 'process', (what exactly is the definition of that word anyway?) "Oh please just let me please breakdown!"